Happy Days =)

I feel like I've come a long way at least in the last week. A few hiccups here and there but mostly I've been HAPPY and POSITIVE.... and my mind, has been MY mind. 

It's hard to say whether the medication has kicked in already or if it's just that I have moved through 'that phase' for now. It's probably a bit of both but ANYHOW... here's hoping for a little more light heartedness yes?

I enrolled in a design course yesterday. Bit the bullet and finally decided to throw my NEGATIVE hesitant feelings aside and realised I CAN do this.

I can draw...

Maybe not fantastically but I've never had any lessons.. I can learn right?

I have dreamed years away when thinking about how I'd love to get into design but been afraid I won't make it anywhere. Who cares if I don't? I'm doing this FOR ME.

Oh and.. I have a baby ferret coming... to keep me company and amused =) She is only a bit over a month old so I can't take her off her mother yet but I see her nearly every day...

Meet Splat..

 

"Growth itself contains the germ of happiness" - Pearl S. Buck

I've been so up and down lately. Like Yesterday - I drank all day n slept then woke up n drank again. Went to my Mental Health care thingy 'intoxicated' and well... life was just shit. And it all started cuz I woke up and The Mister and I had a little argument about shit all. SO WHAT?! Need to freaking pull my head in already.

Anyways - today I have done HEAPS. Maybe not compared to a 'normal' person. But, I've completely Autumn cleaned the house... smells pretty and all =) Done all the washing including the bed sheets. Spoken with 5 Government organisations and actually gotten somewhere with EACH of them. I've sussed out a course to do and I've taken the top off a few of my other goals too.

I CANT HELP but hope that when The Mister comes home he will see all I've done and give me a big hug and kiss and sit down and tell me about his day and ask me about mine. HA... wake up... ain't gonna happen. Nope he will come home, MAYBE give me a kiss on the head and go kiss and cuddle and play with his dog. Then he will sit down at the computer. And that will be that.

Grrr... I'm such a fucking sook. lol. At least I know it though.

COME ON MEDS N SHIT... KICK IN ALREADY!!